I am struggling financially. I have two children, I am a single mother, and I live in New York City. I am not lazy, I am motivated, I am strong, I am hard-working, I am a human. But, try as I might, I cannot figure out the conundrum – how do single moms make it? I suppose they have the support of family and friends. It takes a village, right?

I need a full time job that still allows me to be able to bring my kids to school in the morning and pick them up at the end of the day. I do not want my kids to be in after school five days a week. A few days would be fine. I don’t know what to do. I’ve applied for many jobs and I haven’t gotten any of them. I am trying…hard. I am failing and falling on my face over and over again.

My family is disappointed in me. They do not understand. I try to explain.

The only thing I can do is try.

I need a full time job. And I need one now.

I applied for a job with Yahoo. It was a three month contractor position. They liked me. But, after two rounds of interviews and a test, I didn’t get it. They said my qualifications were excellent, but they went with someone with more experience. It’s a tough job market in New York City.

Every day I make it my full time job to apply for full time jobs. I apply on LinkedIN, I apply on the company websites.

Nothing.

It’s getting frustrating.

I continue to freelance write to somewhat pay the bills. It’s not enough. I am feeding my children and putting clothes on their backs but we are still struggling.

It’s simply not enough.

How can I be there for my children, put food on the table, and have a full time job? There must be an answer to this.

How?

I need to know how?

I know that people do it. I know they do. I just don’t know how. They must have a lot of help.

I need to get a job so I can afford to pay a babysitter to help me with the childcare needs. However, how am I supposed to go on interviews when I don’t have childcare? What if the interview is at 9am? I am just getting out of dropping my kids off from school.

So tell me…how do I get around this? How do I pull myself out of this hole?

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