This is Not Happening

I’m not writing this. We’re not in the hospital. This isn’t happening again. Samara is not having surgery.

We’re not sitting in a hospital room waiting. Samara didn’t rip out her IV. I am not here.

Okay, maybe we are here, even though
I really don’t want to be.

I am grateful that my friend Ilana works at Cornell.

I am grateful that this is happening again. It shows me that I am strong. Samara is strong. We got this. We can handle this.

I am not going to crumble.

Even though this IS happening. I’m
not going to panic.

I am here for my daughter.
I will be strong for her.

The last time I was in this situation, after it happened…I broke down.

This time, I’m not doing that.

The universe has thrown me the same situation to show me that I can handle
this.

Just do it.
Move forward.

I am here.
I got this.