Waiting for something that might never come

Waiting. I'm waiting for something that may never happen and I'm trying to be okay with that. One never knows what will happen in life and this is no different. I'm sitting at the bus stop of my life and maybe that bus will come. It's the number 17, and I've ridden it before. It [...]

By | 2017-09-25T20:55:34+00:00 September 25th, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on Waiting for something that might never come

Close to the Chest and Self Love in Romantic Relationships

I'm an enigma. I seem to be emotionally open, and yet I'm afraid to reveal how I feel at times. This has caused me some problems in romantic relationships. On the surface, it seems to be clear how I feel and yet there's so much more than meets the eye. How do you become truly [...]

By | 2017-08-29T19:57:47+00:00 August 29th, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on Close to the Chest and Self Love in Romantic Relationships

Learning to go with the flow

When I was a kid, I used to hear this expression all the time: go with the flow. I was an imaginative child, so I had several different variations of visuals pop into my head when I heard this. One was my period, I know I was weird. Another one was a gushing waterfall, and [...]

By | 2017-08-18T14:32:12+00:00 August 18th, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on Learning to go with the flow

When I hide

I hide when I am tired, shutting down, needing a break. It's not that I don't care about you. It's not that I'm selfish, it's not that I don't want to be your friend. I just can't help anyone right now. I'm trying to help myself and even that is challenging. I know that hiding [...]

By | 2017-08-16T12:09:39+00:00 August 16th, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on When I hide

You gotta talk to someone

UGH, I hate talking about my problems. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know I seem like an open book, but we all have secrets. We all have things that we'd rather not talk about. So I got to therapy and vomit out what I'm aware of and not too scared to admit. That's not impressive or [...]

By | 2017-08-14T10:25:07+00:00 August 11th, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on You gotta talk to someone


Little by little I am getting better. I'm not sure what I'm getting better at or from. I just know that I am getting better. That's cool, right? I mean, it's better than getting worse. How many times can I say the word "better?" I think it's five so far. Maybe I should have titled [...]

By | 2017-08-09T17:54:37+00:00 August 9th, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on Slowly

The Depression Diet

I have been on a diet lately. It's an impromptu diet as in I didn't plan for it. I don't have a great appetite right now and I find that I am forcing myself to eat. I'm accepting that this is the way things are right now. It comes along with depression for me. Some [...]

By | 2017-08-02T12:57:07+00:00 August 2nd, 2017|Uncategorized|Comments Off on The Depression Diet