There's nothing like not writing. I feel the pressure of wanting to say something profound, but all the thoughts in my head are angry or depressing. I want to be hilarious. Hey, what she wrote there, that was hilarious! Humor is subjective, we know this, but I want to be funny damn it. All the [...]
I had a dream I wrote you a letter. I kept trying to write your name. It wasn't working. Then I tried to write you how I felt. But the ink turned to glittery gelatinous glue and melted into the page. I read somewhere once that you can't read words in dreams. I knew what [...]
There are some things in life that can't be "figured out" or rationalized. Feelings are like that. The heart wants what it wants and despite your attempts to merge your mind and your heart to have the same road trip, the heart takes over and drives the car off road onto an unchartered nature trail. [...]
Surviving All or Nothing Friendship By Shawna Ayoub Ainslie Hi. I'm Shawna, and I'm a survivor. I have all or nothing tendencies, and that doesn't often make me the best friend, except when I'm the BEST friend. Like I said, all or nothing. As you can imagine, it has taken me most of my adult life to [...]
I didn't know where I was going when I dove into that lake. The water wasn't clear either, which didn't help. Nevertheless I curved my back and arms and threw my body head first into the murky water. It seemed like the thing to do. I needed to leave where I was, because there wasn't anything [...]
I just came back from BlogHer 16, which was a fantastic experience. I won Voices of The Year, and was able to read my blog post about being disabled in front of a largely supportive group of my peers. That was a fantastic experience. However, I won't pretend that my interactions with everyone at the [...]
The story isn't over. There's an intermission and I'm hungry but there isn't a concession stand. I have to listen to the grumbling in my stomach for this indeterminable amount of time. I'm tired, starving and probably dehydrated. How long is the intermission? It doesn't say on the program. Nobody seems to know. They are [...]
I ordered sushi for lunch today. I was too tired to make anything and I wanted to treat myself because I deserve it. When it arrived it had two kinds of rolls, one of them was an Alaska Roll and the other one was something that I didn't recognize. Apparently I had ordered this kind [...]
