“Who I am hates who I’ve been.” – Relient K.

There’s a person out there who hates me. I know, right? Me! I am awesome. Who could possibly despise me? Trust me when I tell you that this person hates my guts. I won’t tell you who it is for the sake of the person. But, I will tell you that it makes me uncomfortable that they hate me. Guess what? I bet there are many other people out there that don’t care for me.

What makes this situation so different? Why am I so uncomfortable? Why can’t I let it go? Because they used to be my friend.

If you think this blog post is about you, then it is…or maybe it isn’t. Or maybe it doesn’t fucking matter.

I have been up since 3am thinking about self-love.

What I’ve come to is this: there will be many people in your life who will not like you. Shit happens. We are people. We are born, we do not have stagnant personalities. We change, we grow, we evolve
and sometimes we outgrow friendships.

I’d like to think that friends are forever and our human connections will stay with us until we are no longer on this planet we call earth but that is not the truth.

I meet you, we fall in love with each other’s similar or starkly different qualities for a finite moment in time and then we have two choose your own adventure options:

  1. We stay friends
  2. We part ways

Who the fuck knows which one is going to come to fruition?

Regardless of the potential outcome of our connection. I will put every ounce of effort into loving you that I can.

I will hug you, buy you French fries, console you when you’re sad and watch Netflix with you for this moment.

There will be people who will hate you and people who will adore you and sometimes those people are the same human beings.

You are important regardless of the way other people feel about you.

I feel badly that I am hated by someone who used to be my friend. But, that is a reality.

If you ask me who the person is, I won’t tell you.

That’s not the point.

What is the point?

Love yourself.

Love the connections you have in this moment.

Right now.

Go call your friend

and

tell her

you love her.
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