I’ve been spoiled this past five weeks. Wil has been on paternity leave and I’ve had a lot of help with Samara. During this time, he’s made it possible for me to have time alone with Ari and allowed me to have a full night’s sleep while he stayed up with the baby. In case you’re wondering, I had to pump milk each time in order for these events to be at all possible. Yay nursing!

He’s scheduled to go back to work on Wednesday evening. As I’ve mentioned before, he works the overnight shift. Once he goes back, I’ll be alone with the two kids pretty much all the time. When he’s home during the day, he’ll be sleeping, and at night, he’ll be at work.

Needless to say I am terrified.

I have no idea how I’ll manage having an infant and a 2 and 3/4 year-old by myself. To be fair, I’m not entirely alone. I have my parents right downstairs, but the primary responsibility of caring for these kids is on me.

My friend Cordy (mother of two girls, two and three years old respectively) told me when you have two kids, you’re always inevitably neglecting one of them. When I’ve been alone with my brood, I’ve found this to be absolutely the case. For example, Ari is repeatedly asking for chocolate milk, meanwhile Samara is screaming, demanding to be nursed.

In a couple of days, it’s going to be all me. To all the moms out there with two (or more) kids: how did you survive when your husband/boyfriend/partner went back to work?