I’m Trying to Focus

//I’m Trying to Focus

I’m Trying to Focus

What a day to think about focusing. My brain is all over the place, as it usually is with ADHD. I’m trying to write and I keep getting distracted by all the things I want to do, all the creative endeavors I want to embark upon and can’t get accomplished. It’s a balance, but when I’m flooded with ideas, I want to see which ones stick. I want to try them out, throw them into the universe and see which ones people want to connect with and want to pay attention to because I never know what will work. But that’s not what I need to do. I need to focus on what’s in front of me. As much as it hurts my brain I need to do that.

Living with ADHD is so challenging. It interferes with my everything, it shows me what I can’t do more than what I can. Too often it can leave me feeling down, deficient and like a failure. But, then there are days when my hyperfocus makes me feel like a superhero. I feel like I can do anything, and it’s amazing. I write an article at warp speed. The words flow out of me like water and it’s exciting! I don’t know what I’m going to say or how I’m going to say it.

With hyperfocus, I can create amazing products and help people. I have 1 million ideas at once and it’s hard to choose from them, but with hyperfocus, I zero in on when an idea and it makes things happen. I make things happen. I don’t know how but I do.

It’s weird because ADHD I’m can go either way; I can’t focus at all or I’m focusing so well that it’s almost frightening. I love the idea that I can do anything. If I just try hard enough I can concentrate. Mindfulness helps me and also working on concentrating when I’m in therapy. I talk with my therapist teaches about ways to channel my excessive energy, which looks like anxiety sometimes, into productivity.

There are times that I have this desire to surround myself with people to drown out the noise inside my head. I’m daunted by the repetitive thoughts, especially when they’re detrimental to my self-esteem. I want to ignore them, but they’re so loud that I can’t hear beyond them. When I find myself preoccupied with the same thought over and over again, it’s hard to see my worth. Self-esteem or loving yourself isn’t an instantaneous process, especially if you But ultimately focusing on my worth and examining what needs to change is so important. If I drown out the noise in my head by being around others too much it can actually be detrimental to my mental health.

The more evidence I see that I can concentrate, the more I feel confident that I can focus. better I’ll feel about what I want to accomplish in life. Sometimes I am terrified to see what lies within but I know that there is something that I can learn from and take away when I work with my brain. Everyone has a different way of seeing things, and my way might not be your way, and boy does that come into play as an essential part of family relationships.

Focusing is hard for me, but it could be easy for you. Maybe I’m good at something you’re not so great at doing. Perhaps, I’m great at coming up with creative ways to problem-solve at times.

So if you’re reading this and having trouble focusing, you’re not alone. I’m right there with you, getting distracted by everything or nothing, depending on the day.

 

By | 2018-09-26T20:04:42+00:00 September 26th, 2018|Uncategorized|Comments Off on I’m Trying to Focus
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