I Put My Wings Away

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I Put My Wings Away

Today my friend Hasty Words gave me the best compliment. She said she admired me for being openly vulnerable. I thought about that for a moment. I looked inside myself. She was right. I pour my heart out without thinking. It’s who I am and I know it’s who I will always be.

I am a passionate person. I am a risk taker. I am Sarah Fader. Sarah Fader is a beautiful person. I’m not afraid to say that anymore. For years I lived in silence with my pain. For years I struggled with self-loathing. Now I know that though I have flaws they are beautiful. Now I am aware that it is my flaws that make me human. Now I am cognizant of how my flaws can help other people grow.

We are not perfect. Perfection is a myth. Perfection should be buried with Oedipus, Antigone, Romeo and Juliet.

I am insecure, I am needy, I am hysterically funny, I am socially awkward, I am a good friend, I cry a lot, and I am Sarah Fader. For the first time in 35 years I have a body that I want to remain in. For so long I wanted to fly away. Even thinking about flying away right now makes me want to cry.

My feet are on the ground and I put my wings away I don’t have them anymore. I’m walking in this life and I’m ready to take on the world because I am Sarah Fader. I know who I am and who I am is beautiful.

Who you are is beautiful.

I want you to know that flaws are beautiful like you.

Many people are afraid of me.

I used to not understand why.

Now I know.

it is because I am openly raw.

It is because I cannot be someone I am not.

Well you know what? Fuck them.

You can’t handle me then I’ll walk on.

Because I have many people who want to hold my hand and I don’t need somebody who’s afraid of me.

My hand is open like my heart.

I am waiting for the person who isn’t afraid to grab my hand and walk with me down the road.

I know he’s out there.

I know I’m out there.

I’m in this world to be loved.

I’m not afraid anymore.

By | 2015-04-06T13:45:20+00:00 April 6th, 2015|Uncategorized|1 Comment

One Comment

  1. Trauma Dad April 6, 2015 at 3:09 pm

    Perfect! Life is too short for bullshit, and everything you say here is spot-on! Refined gold, you are.

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